Why is it that some people just exude self confidence while other people struggle to find it…like me. I look at these people and can tell that they know exactly who they are , where they are going, and have the that take me or leave me mentality. Me on the other hand I have a constant need to make everyone around me happy even if it means being taking advantage of. I don’t speak my mind because I am apprehensive about conflict. I am very timid and apologize for things way to much. Yes there are apologizes that are warranted but I tend to take it to a new level, so much to the point that my husband has told me on several occasions to stop apologizing. This lack of self confidence has held me back from realizing and achieving my full potential. I have had these thoughts before over the years but it has really started coming to light withing the past year. This past year has been an eye opener with a series of ups, downs, and enlightenment. Trying to learn a new skill that you have never done nor ever thought you would ever do is scary. You feel like you are not good enough or that you can’t do it. I have definitely had these feelings on more than one occasion. These feelings hold you back and prevent you from pushing through. Everyone struggles…its human nature.
How can you change a trait that you have had your entire life? It’s hard. Deep down I know that I am worth it and that I can do anything I set my mind too but to actually make a conscience effort to change…that is the hardest part of all. I feel I have become complacent and content and that is not a good feeling to have when you want to achieve more in your life. I have read self help books and articles online and tried to implement the techniques they described in my everyday life. Then comes that little voice again and it all goes to the wayside.
I know real change does not happen over night and sometimes you may fall but you have to get right back up. I know that once I build my confidence up it will spill over into other aspects of my life. However, it is easier said than done.